nothing makes me anymore

i wake up and feel as if i've been cursed for awakening.  all i wanted was tonight, just one night so i would'nt have to be inside my head,but he couldn't give me even that. he promised

then again he promised many things

i'm just too stupid to always believe him

This is Ladytrons song ~PLaygirl~

I just got out of work and i wished i hadn't trusted my good judgment and flaked out on some friends. Winter break has been lonley all i do is work and when i'm off they call me to come in FUCK THE ALMIGHTY DOLLAR!

perhaps the fading images on the wall and in your fingers throw wisps of sanity in my diresction but how dependable is something that needs to constantly be provoked?

QOute of the night:"soo ummm do you deliver like pizza hut?"

I don't want to do coke

I never want to try herion

I'd never do fucking crystal meth!

I'd never pop in some e before going on a date

but i'd sre like a fucking blunt right now

MArgret cho said it best when she stated why she can't do drugs anymore because you have to form puesdo-relationships with your dealers.

The trash at my work looks like the carcass of an animal that ate its own fucking foot.... then had a Venti- half-caff -Nonfat-vanillla-170 degree-latte

Currently Playing Give Up By Postal Service see related

- such great heights

OH MY FUCKING GOD *** POSTAL SERVICE & SEPULTURA*MAKE LONG NIGHTS bearable ahhhhhhh!

ps call why don't you? you gave me the wrong number and i dare not call your dwelling... I'm curious as to how your story is unfolding and what new character you've become.

boobity boop boop.

 there is soo much to be seen and understood, so why is it that the main concern in most peoples head is to look good? or to be popular? why are all of us horrible to each other?How the fuck did we end up to where we are today? Hate is filling up our mouths,ears,eyes and greedy little hands, as i move closer to an adult world i start to feel that hate trying to take over me. I don't want to live in dog eat dog kind of world. the more and more i think about the more i want to go live up in a commune,but i know i won't even have the courage to cast away my materialistic and family worries. A catch 22 that makes me a hypocrite.....